I’m going to mess up the order of posts I’ve kind of established and once again post about my war on weight. I’ll have a video game post next time. I think it is going to be about the Spec Ops: The Line. I’d recommend playing it, and I’ll explain why next time.
After the embarrassment I suffered on the plane I decided I was going to do something about the weight. Come hell or high water, I was going to kick my ass into gear and shed some of this unnecessary fat. The first problem I faced, however, was how was I supposed to tackle this gigantic problem. You see there have been times when I have caught the wellness bug. I call them “moments of lucidity” where I snapped out of the general malaise and denial of my problem and tried to do something about it.
- I bought a treadmill.
- I started thinking about meal portion size.
- I took vitamins.
- I bought fruit and vegetables and less crap.
All pretty good things, right? Well, none of them ever worked because I never saw any of them through. Quick aside, did you know only about 40% of people who play video games actually finish the games they start? That means more people quit in the middle of a video game than people who stick it through. I apparently fit into the quitters category too, because none of my moments of lucidity lead to any substantial changes. After one use, I unplugged a treadmill and it became just an expensive clothes rack. After a week, I went back large portions of food. I forgot to take my vitamins after a week or two. And finally, I stopped buying healthy food because it was too expensive and I was never eating it anyway. My moments of lucidity were indeed just that: moments. I fell back into my gluttonous ways, actually making things worse because I tried something to get the weight off for a week and that should be good enough.
This time needed to be different. After fumbling around the internet looking at fad diets and the like and I came across one I particularly liked. I’m not going to shill one site over another in this post, because I think how one loses weight is a personal choice he or she must make themselves. One that works for me might not work for someone else. With that said, I really believed in the one I found. I believed in what they were trying to accomplish with the plan, I believed in how they recommend losing the weight, and I believed that I could go a long way with it. My belief in the program’s goals coupled with my desire for a real lifestyle change I think fueled my desire to start strongly.
After nearly five weeks of actively battling the weight, I have made some decent progress. Portion sizes are less, I exercise regularly, and the weight is slowly, but surely, coming off. But this is only the beginning. I have a lot to make up for – hell, I have a lot to atone for. There’s nothing brave about what I’m doing or saying on this site – I’m simply trying to right a lot of wrongs I have made in the past. It is going to be a long journey, but this time I’m committed to making it happen.
You can bet your ass I’m going to turn the tide of this war – and I won’t stop until I’ve won.