I’m going to mess up the order of posts I’ve kind of established and once again post about my war on weight.  I’ll have a video game post next time.  I think it is going to be about the Spec Ops: The Line.  I’d recommend playing it, and I’ll explain why next time. 

After the embarrassment I suffered on the plane I decided I was going to do something about the weight.  Come hell or high water, I was going to kick my ass into gear and shed some of this unnecessary fat.  The first problem I faced, however, was how was I supposed to tackle this gigantic problem. You see there have been times when I have caught the wellness bug.  I call them “moments of lucidity” where I snapped out of the general malaise and denial of my problem and tried to do something about it.

• I bought a treadmill.  
• I started thinking about meal portion size.
• I took vitamins.  
• I bought fruit and vegetables and less crap.  

All pretty good things, right?  Well, none of them ever worked because I never saw any of them through.  Quick aside, did you know only about 40% of people who play video games actually finish the games they start?  That means more people quit in the middle of a video game than people who stick it through.  I apparently fit into the quitters category too, because none of my moments of lucidity lead to any substantial changes.  After one use, I unplugged a treadmill and it became just an expensive clothes rack.  After a week, I went back large portions of food.  I forgot to take my vitamins after a week or two.  And finally, I stopped buying healthy food because it was too expensive and I was never eating it anyway.  My moments of lucidity were indeed just that: moments.  I fell back into my gluttonous ways, actually making things worse because I tried something to get the weight off for a week and that should be good enough.  

This time needed to be different. After fumbling around the internet looking at fad diets and the like and I came across one I particularly liked.  I’m not going to shill one site over another in this post, because I think how one loses weight is a personal choice he or she must make themselves.  One that works for me might not work for someone else.  With that said, I really believed in the one I found.  I believed in what they were trying to accomplish with the plan, I believed in how they recommend losing the weight, and I believed that I could go a long way with it.  My belief in the program’s goals coupled with my desire for a real lifestyle change I think fueled my desire to start strongly.

After nearly five weeks of actively battling the weight, I have made some decent progress.  Portion sizes are less, I exercise regularly, and the weight is slowly, but surely, coming off.  But this is only the beginning.  I have a lot to make up for – hell, I have a lot to atone for.  There’s nothing brave about what I’m doing or saying on this site – I’m simply trying to right a lot of wrongs I have made in the past.  It is going to be a long journey, but this time I’m committed to making it happen.  

You can bet your ass I’m going to turn the tide of this war – and I won’t stop until I’ve won.